The two photos in this post are great examples. I’m always smiling and don’t use make up regularly. Seeing myself with make up on and this facial expression is strange (and I’m sure that everyone who knows me agrees with that).
I feel like a pretty, self-confident and somehow cold stranger is staring back at me. Not someone I see every time I look in the mirror.
If I didn’t know better, I would think I couldn’t look like that.
Lately I’ve been looking at the art of conceptual photographers who take amazing self-portraits. It seems as if they use their body as a tool for their art, showing different versions of themselves.
And I guess that’s the point. The photos show a different me, one of many mes that are within me.
The idea that there are different versions of myself waiting to be explored is fascinating. This is one of the reasons why I want to start with conceptual photography.
For that, I first have to get comfortable with being in front of the camera, acting as someone else or maybe rather emphasizing a particular facet of me.
I remember that I’ve felt this strange impulse of creating an image to picture my feelings before – see here. It shows how I felt, not who I ‘normally’ am. I’d love to make art out of that. It’s so interesting to explore one’s hidden sides!
Back to the stranger – I believe that’s why this girl feels so strange to me. She’s a tiny, unfamiliar part of me and I couldn’t get to know her better – yet.
She looks a bit like a self-confident artist, so maybe, if this aspect is already within me, I can become one too.
Have you experienced something similar before? Please tell me that I’m not alone with that, haha.