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The Light

On some days, I’ve laughed merrily, the black phase just a faint memory in the back of my mind. I’ve even started to wonder if I hadn’t been too dramatic. On the first spring day this year, I have a wonderful photo shoot with a very talented girl. My heart pumps passion through my veins. We create photos I love. It doesn’t happen often enough, but whenever it does, it fills me with a deep sense of accomplishment, making all the struggle and failure worth it. ✕ ✕ ✕ But...

Demons

Life has been going on quietly. Days went by without my usual emotional rollercoaster. No state of joy nor of anxiety, just mediocrity. I was tired and busy – but I believed I was fine. Life is bland and less intense this way – without emotions, there’s no impulse to create or write. But it’s better than feeling down, right? ✕ ✕ ✕ I was wrong. I’ve been walking on ice all along while believing I was on a boring but safe path. The ground...

bliss

a snapshot by Robin – I love what he captured here: me looking 100% unglamorous, but happy and comfortable Today was amazing. Yesterday’s tears and overwhelming loneliness seem like a surreal nightmare to me now. I spent the whole day – from getting up at 10am till 9pm – with my flatmate Robin and his close friend “C” (he appears at the bottom of yesterday’s post). It’s the first time I voluntarily spent so much time with someone (besides my boyfriend) during a day...