Back in Switzerland, beautiful memories behind, an unknown future ahead.
A gap year, once again. A bit different from last year when I volunteered in Germany. Less structure, more uncertainty. And I still can’t handle it. I’m trying not to freak out, but I’m having a hard time.
As always, my self-doubts are overwhelming. What if I don’t get the jobs. What if I do get them but do badly. What if I fail to teach my students something. What if I fail to take care of the children. What if, what if.
It’s crazy how I can still feel insecure about something I’ve done many times before. My worst enemy is inside my head.
Now my first tuition classes are over and they all went smooth. I really had no reason to worry about them.
That means I have to focus on the most important thing: Photography. I have to give it all if I want to make it into Art School. Luckily my future doesn’t depend on entering or not, but I really want to accomplish it.
I’ll use this blog to keep track of my progress, dreams and plans. Currently, I’m taking a lot of portraits of my friends. You can look at them here. If anyone lives nearby and wants to volunteer as a model, let me know!