For someone who loves faces and capturing their individual beauty I’ve been very focused on staring at the pavement in front of my feet lately, avoiding any eye contact. When I’m out on my own, fear burdens my gaze, pulling it down. It sticks to the bumpy sidewalk in front of me. Step, step, road damage, step, dog pile, step. Don’t look at anyone, don’t attract any attention. Eye contact is beautiful, smiling at strangers too; it’s a pity we’ve become accustomed to ignoring each other. It’s a pity I let my fear dictate my composure.
The streets in Montevideo’s heart are loud and bustle with life. At least for a small town girl like me. The buzz of activity is a spectacle worth observing, especially for photographers. There are so many things I could capture. I should capture. But sometimes I’m afraid of the world around me and rather stay within myself. I know – by doing so, I’m missing out on so much. But I’d miss out on a lot more if I pressured myself and ended up staying in the safety of my love’s room, shut away and isolated. So I try to take it easy.
Baby steps. I need time. Little by little my gaze will lift from the pavement, roam and curiously look at the faces around me. And then, one day, I walk with a little smile on my lips, welcoming the drizzle on my face, eyes attentively wandering around, studying the faces I see. Most of them are in their own world, too, hardly looking up. It’s okay. At some point, I’ll be ready to approach them, talk to them, photograph them. I know that while some will be suspicious and evasive, others will welcome a friendly face that randomly chats them up. And these are the encounters I’ll remember with a smile.
You might remember this writing challenge I found on Lu’s blog last year (you have to check her out, she’s a crazily talented writer/photographer/painter/artist!). Since I’ve received some compliments on my writing lately and my grades from uni indicate that my writing lecturer appreciates my writing more than my photography lecturers my photography, I decided to work on my writing again.
I know enough amazing writers to be realistic – I’m not good at writing. But I love to do it and only practice will help me improve. This challenge is a good way to start writing about something other than my typical journal-styled posts. So I’ll try to work on this challenge as regularly as possible and well, see where it’ll lead. :)