Demons

2017-02-20

Life has been going on quietly. Days went by without my usual emotional rollercoaster. No state of joy nor of anxiety, just mediocrity. I was tired and busy – but I believed I was fine. Life is bland and less intense this way – without emotions, there’s no impulse to create or write. But it’s better than feeling down, right?

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I was wrong. I’ve been walking on ice all along while believing I was on a boring but safe path. The ground beneath my steps felt assuring, but I’ve never actually reached the shore where life with its heights and lows happens. In my ignorance, I’ve been balancing on dangerous grounds instead. And now the ice broke, I’m stuck in freezing water that takes my breath away and I don’t know how to proceed.

Darkness is closing in. My doubts and issues wash over me like a wave, threatening to devour me, to pull me into the deep vastness of desolation.

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I can’t stand being in my body. I can’t stand living my life, don’t want it to be mine. It doesn’t make sense, I know I have millions of reasons to be grateful. I am. But this feeling is bigger than reason, and it consumes me.

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I’m tired of people. They hurt and leave ugly scars.

Things have been adding up. Two classmates ignored me when I spoke to them, probably not even on purpose, and in the twinkling of an eye I’m a sixteen years old exchange student again, desperately trying to make conversation and friends, only ending up getting ignored again and again, never feeling lonelier, having the hardest time of her life during what was supposed to be an amazing experience.

Then there’s the group chat with my high school friends. A new topic comes up, everyone knows what it’s about and I have to ask twice before someone bothers to explain me what’s going on. It sucks being left out.

Also, there are family issues, and the subject of my documentary project for uni is giving me a really hard time. And Robin, my flatmate who has turned into one of my best friends, has been absent because of an injury and I miss talking and laughing with him so damn much. And of course my love isn’t available 24/7 so I have to learn to be okay on my own. It’s hard. Your thoughts grow even louder when you have no one to talk to.

Loneliness is swallowing me up, I feel rejected and forgotten.

I want to connect with the people I photograph. Instead, there are so many vultures trying to get a free shoot. They don’t care about me or what I want to express, they just want to get some ‘pretty photos’ for free and that’s it. I’ve made so many mistakes in the past. I’m afraid of wasting my time and passion yet again.

And I’m trying really hard with my photography, trying and failing, trying and failing, running into walls again and again. I know I’m far from good, my work is mediocre, but I wished more friends would support me nonetheless. Or my classmates – I thought we were in this together, but apparently I’ve been too naive, as always.

I can’t express how much I long for connecting with someone right now.

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Then a blogger I visited comes into my mind. I liked her, she welcomed me with open arms and I had an amazing time in her country. But afterwards, I had to realise that she’s not only fake, but also one of those people who like to make others believe they have a perfect life. It makes me want to throw up.

I’m so done, done, done.

Tired of this, of pretending, lying to myself, trying to be someone I’m not. Of people pretending and faking and making other people feel bad about themselves.

I ache for raw, ugly nakedness.

And I’m so tired of Facebook, posting something, hoping people will like it, drawing my sense of confidence from that – and of Instagram, those unfollowers desperately trying to get you to follow them. Are we all sad little humans desperate for attention?

It’s wrong. Unhealthy.

I’d like to publish my stuff only here, in my safe little space, creating art only for myself and those who really care about it. I don’t want to beg for attention.

But we live in the age of social media. If I ever want to make some money with my photography, I’ll have to get myself out there. Like millions of others who are desperately trying to get attention. Pitiable.

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I’m playing with the idea of skipping classes tomorrow, I can’t take small talk and superficiality right now, it’s late and my mind is driving me crazy. But I don’t know. I’ll see.

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Sorry for another messy post, I just had to get rid of my crazy thoughts somewhere. Don’t worry, this will pass, I’m going to be okay again. I hope you’re doing well, my loves, take good care of yourselves. <3

// I was about to hit the ‘publish’ button when I got this message from a kind stranger called Brian:

Monika: I admire your photography, and I’m moved by your story. I just wanted you to know that you are appreciated and valued, and that you are talented and passionate.

The timing was perfect. Sometimes it takes so little to save someone from their demons.

73 Comments
    1. Monika, your photography is amazing and beautiful. When I first attempted photography, obviously, I sucked. I had this idea that photography was easy. It wasn’t. After a few years I was kind of good. But just kind of and that scared me. It made me sad and it made me angry. There were a thousand reasons why I thought it would never work. And then I realized you can spend an enormous amount of time thinking them all up or you can just trust that one reason why it will work out. So just trust that one reason why it’s all going to work out. Ignore that inner voice that’s telling you it won’t and that you’re better off hiding under the bed. Go after what you want as if your life depends on it. Your work is already amazing. Keep at it and it will only continue getting better! 😊

      1. Dear Michael, thank you very much for your kind and thoughtful comment. :) I think I know exactly what you mean, being ‘kind of’ good – like, knowing there is potential but not being sure if it’s enough to be really good. I’ve heard of that quote with the one reason it’ll work out before and I believe it’s true, thank you for reminding me of that. I hope you’re doing well, thank you again for your support! :))

    1. Constantly in the quest of the love of strangers all too busy broadcasting to listen – social media is the illness that proclaims itself the cure for loneliness. That is how how the money machine prints the currency – make everyone addicted to the poison they proliferate. Drugs, alcohol, Facebook, Instagram & etc.? I do not see much of a difference.

      Here is my unsolicited advice on your self-suspected mediocrity – post less.

      Writing and photography are obviously different forms of creative expression, but great writing requires extensive revision, hours of editing. Too frequently posting cannot sustain greatness. Shakespeare wrote some great plays, but it took about 30 years. He also wrote some bad plays (the ones we don’t read).

      If your fotos are mediocre then your subject’s humanity evaded capture. How long did you spend with them? Did you speak with them at a deep level? What did you discuss to know their stories? Or did you you just sit them on a stump and ask them to play a role? Most people are shitty actors. Open your ears and heart. Tune into the Transcendental rhythms that bind us to the earth and each other, then and only then will you capture glory in light.

      When you capture it, post it. Likes be damned you did your best. That isn’t mediocrity, but the pinnacle of your work. Then the next day you lace up and hike to exceed yesterday.

      Viel Gluck

      1. Hello Brett, I didn’t see your comment till yesterday because for some reason, it landed in the bin – I’m so glad I found it!

        Thank you very much for your valuable advice. I guess I’m very impulsive when it comes to writing my posts since many originate from an immediate feeling I want to process, then it happens too often that little mistakes slip my attention. But it’s something I can live with (for now).

        The photos, however, are another matter. I keep reading “you have to post often so people don’t forget about you” and I guess that makes me post pictures I don’t love – just to keep the content coming. I loved your second to last paragraph about communicating the subject – that’s something I’ve started to focus on one month ago and I feel like I’m on the right track, especially since you’ve mentioned it too.

        Herzlichen Dank für deinen Rat! :)

        Have a lovely weekend and take care!

        1. Monika,

          I’m so glad you did not see the comment as a slight because it certainly was not meant as one. I enjoy your photography, but I heard you voicing similar concerns of my own about posting.

          I too started a blog for what I initially thought would yield some instant feedback. I wasn’t looking for praise or adulation, but genuine reaction. It didn’t come. I have very few comments on any post I’ve done and none of real substance, only a few of faint praise. It was initially disheartening to pour my soul into them and see zero comments. It was like calling to the mountain that didn’t echo back.

          I do still write, enter contests, submit to literary magazines. It is a long process. I do it with the faith that one day the mountain will echo back even then I expect it will be a whisper. So, I post a lot less to lower the noise that I might hear it.

          I hope you continue to enjoy Lucerne. It is one of my favorite places on earth.

          Dein,
          Brett

    1. “But we live in the age of social media. If I ever want to make some money with my photography, I’ll have to get myself out there. Like millions of others who are desperately trying to get attention” Monika this is the propaganda of tiny little minds, who have been indoctrinated into thinking that being a success is how many likes you get on facebook; NOTHING could be FURTHER from the TRUTH! And if you believe them, and join them, you will, just like them, get absolutely nowhere no matter how much talent you have, and no matter how much your photography improves…matter of fact if you follow and emulate their photography, yours will never improve: just one little fish in a monstrous sea of mediocrity. NOT on facebook, not on any social media, not even blogging, where all the fakes and pretenders hide in their anonymity and among their sycophantic followers: ‘Real’ life in the ‘real world’ is where it happens!

      1. Hi Stephen, thank you for your comment! First, I want to make it clear: I know it’s not about the number of likes in Facebook, but having a strong social media following also means having more potential clients (since more people know of you). But I absolutely agree with you, it’s important to focus on the real life in the real world and don’t let myself get too distracted with the social media noise.

        Also, I really appreciated the constructive email you sent me a while ago – I’m so sorry I didn’t answer it, I kept postponing it because I really wanted to take my time when doing so. So I want to let you know that I’m very glad you took your time and gave me some valuable advice!

        I hope you’re doing well, take care! :)

        1. Monika, please feel free to either email me, or message me through Facebook anytime you want advice, or for that matter any time you want to give me some advice, or even just want to chat, feel lonely, or just want a different person to bounce ideas off: I strongly believe that there is never any real ‘competition’ amongst photographers, but good ones interconnect, discuss and support one another to everyone’s benefit

    1. Allow me to support the “other Brian”: You are too valuable to brood.
      Trust me. We Brians know what we see.
      Chin up!
      Brian (2)

      1. You Brians are very kind :D thank you for your comment – I appreciate your sense of humor, too :)

        1. At your service my dear. ‘hope the mood is better? Hey! This is March already. Spring is around the corner. You won’t be freezing in your photo shoots in the forest. ;)
          Be good.

          1. Yes, I’m better, thank you :) haha I actually appreciated the cold – no mosquitos and ticks around to bite me :D but I’m glad the days are getting longer. Take care!

    1. Don’t give up, I love your photo’s and trust me I think everyone has those days when they don’t think their work is good enough. But it is, and I feel your brave and strong for just putting yourself out on here. Keep working hard and you will go far no matter what!

      1. Hi Deirdre, thank you for your encouraging words, I appreciated them a lot! <3 Hope you're doing well, keep writing and take care xx

    1. Hey.. I can so relate to your words.. But this shall pass too.. Btw I love your photography,it has a very unique touch of beauty beyond all the stereotypes..
      Take good care of yourself.You’ll be fine..

      1. Thank you so much! It’s always good to know that other people can relate. I’m better now, I hope your dark phases don’t last too long either. Take good care of yourself too <3

    1. OMG…. I’m kind of… I didn’t expect that. I’m glad it helped. Every word is true. You’re amazing. :)

    1. Be your ownself and you’ll attract similar kind of people…….And don’t feel sad about people……You got yourself :) If 9/10 people disappoint you – I’m sure there will be 1 out of 10 who’ll be there for you :)
      “What you seek is seeking you” – Rumi

      1. Hey Raza, you are right, it’s really important not to try to be someone else so you’ll find people who like you for who you really are :) thank you for your encouraging words, I hope you’re doing well! :)

    1. If it helps, I also think your photography is brilliant and your posts are very well-written and captivating :) I hope that you don’t feel the need to have to change yourself for other people, because even if the people around you are hurting you, you can find others out there who will cherish and love you for who you really are. And I think lots of people would agree with me that you have more talent and strength than you give yourself credit for. Sending you good vibes <3

      1. Thank you very much, my dear! It does help to hear that <3 I'm actually blessed and surrounded by many lovely people who wouldn't hurt me intentionally. I guess that I just get very sensitive when I'm feeling like that and quickly feel abandoned even though it's just in my mind. I definitely have to find a way to change that. Big hug back <3 take care! xx

    1. “But we live in the age of social media. If I ever want to make some money with my photography, I’ll have to get myself out there. Like millions of others who are desperately trying to get attention. Pitiable.”

      It’s not actually pitiable. It’s exactly what you said – trying to get yourself out there. Anyone who @ least wants to try to be “anyone of note” must get themselves out there.

      It’s nothing to be ashamed of.

      1. I agree with Daria (sorry for posting here, Daria). Because this IS the age of social media. You don’t really need it if you just want to express yourself through your art. But if you want to earn from it, social media can definitely help especially since yours is a visual art. Even already-famous artists and authors use it now because it opens you up to a wider audience.

        The thing is, you don’t have to beat yourself up over it, Monika. I guess that’s the problem and what’s letting you down. Don’t expect too much because you have yet to learn more. Just concentrate on yourself and your art for now and things will flow naturally. Keep building your portfolio. A lot of us find your brand of photography interesting and beautiful. I can safely say that we mostly aren’t pretenders and we genuinely like what we see…Take heart, girl :)

        1. @J.GI thank you for your encouraging comment! You’re right, I guess I’m overthinking it and shouldn’t care about social media as much as I am doing it now. I’m so glad to have you guys, you’re so supportive and lovely <3 take care xx

      1. @Daria, thank you for your words. I’m glad you think it’s part of the business and nothing to be ashamed of. This “trying to get people’s attention” is definitely something I have to come to terms with. Take care x

    1. Monica, I’ve been a photographer and teacher for a long time and agree, your work is very moving. Any photographer who can bare the soul of their subjects has a talent that is difficult to master because it requires more instinct than it does photography skills. Your work is very strong and you should be proud to have accomplished so much at such a young age.

      1. Hey Rich, thank you very much for your encouragement. Your words mean a lot to me, I’m flattered a photographer like you perceives my work that way. You’re putting things into perspective – I keep comparing myself with teen photographers who have accomplished much more than me, but I guess I’m actually doing okay (as long as I always strive for improvement). Have a wonderful week :)

    1. It may be uncomfortable now but in the end these are the moments that matter because they are the ones you are going to help you grow as a person and figure out what it is you really want. Questioning things is always a good thing and feeling unhappy and lonely is often part of the process. It doesn’t hurt to sit with these emotions for a while and just let them be. They’re all there for a reason.

      I think most people don’t post pretty pictures with bad intentions, even those superficial accounts on instagram that you’re talking about. They’re just trying to fit in, because that’s easier than being a misfit. Yeah, it’s sickening but most of them are victims just like those who spend the day scrolling and liking things they’ll never achieve because they’re not even real. I think you’re doing a great job at standing up against this though. Even if your pictures are edited I never feel like they’re about perfection or looking a certain way, but rather about emotion. You’re good at this and you only just started! Don’t expect yourself to be perfect every single time. You have plenty of time to learn and improve and figure out what you like and what works for you. If you don’t want to beg for attention, simply don’t. I don’t feel like that’s what you’re doing anyway. You’re just putting your work out there and I hope you keep doing that because the world needs people like you. Just don’t let the number of likes you get define the value of neither yourself nor your work because who fucking cares? They are YOUR pictures, this is your room to experiment and even if you take the most beautiful picture there’s still going to be someone who doesn’t like it. So why bother pleasing anyone but yourself? A lot of bad things come from the internet but that doesn’t mean you can’t make a positive change. You’ll find your way :)

      And people – well they hurt sometimes but they can also make each other smile and laugh. They ain’t all that bad. It’s a cruel world but it’s beautiful, too.

    1. Hi Monika, I’m sorry to read you feel like that about your work… I’ve been there and this video was one of the things that helped me to see things different: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AtfvZ_KOiZY
      Check it out if you have time! ;)

      ❤ “We rarely look back on our lives and say ‘I’m disappointed that I made my art.’ ” -S.Godin

      1. Hi Ines, thank you for sharing the video! I’m definitely going to look at it these days :) beautiful quote, too! I hope you’re doing well, take care! <3 hopefully we can meet again soon! :)

    1. You’re writing really takes my breath away every time. You express things that I don’t know how to put into words. That is true talent and you shouldn’t forget that. I really admire you for writing such personal posts, keep pushing through.

    1. *hug*

      Hang in there, dear Monika. You describe somewhere that is familiar to me. I hung in and it got better. Not immediately but I’m a stronger, deeper, more compassionate person as a result. Hang in. We’re here to support you and encourage you. You are unique and beautiful and amazing.

      But sometimes words are not enough. *hug*

    1. This is so recognisable. Especially the (a)social media part. People seem to only communicate via social media these days. It makes people addicted and lonely really. As for you: you are so pretty, you should be a model. Especially when you smile, your dimples are like golden grooves and your moles line up like stars. Awareness of your beauty may help you realise that you could count your blessings regardless of what and who’s out there in this antisocial world. Fuck em. Be strong and follow your heart. You’re too young to feel unhappy. Be well 😊

    1. Life is hard and being an artist is hard and sometimes the bad times feel like they will last forever. But they seldom do. You take amazing pictures and can articulate feelings that a lot of people can’t even identify. That is a gift and a talent.

    1. Reading this post was like reading a book. I’ve been scrolling for quite some time now looking at your photos. Ignoring the words beneath them until “emotional rollercoaster” caught my eye(I was called this once or twice).
      I began to read and I was hooked. The way you write and the photos you take are interesting… in a good way.
      I don’t know you, but speaking for myself and with pure honesty, I believe in you.
      Your writing and photography is intriguing and even though our blogs is complete opposites I followed yours. I admire your writing; its beautiful.

    1. I can’t tell you just how much I can relate (not just when I was younger but up to now), but I can tell you that you can beat this sense of insecurity, little by little. Never give up. You may not get what you want totally, but at least, you can tell yourself that you tried. Focus on what you love–your art, your studies, your boyfriend, your family. Things will always be far from perfect, but just think that nobody has things perfect either. As you have sometime ago realized, scars are beautiful, right? Because scars make you stronger.

      1. I always have this mixed feeling of relief and compassion when someone tells me that they can relate. Thank you for your understanding words. I’m definitely not planning to give up, things just get incredibly overwhelming at times, also because it seems as if my own mind was fighting me. But yes, we’ll get through this :) take care xx

        1. Don’t worry, I get that mixed feeling, too. That means you’re human and that you’re capable of loving others.

    1. I have only just found your blog and this is the first thing I have seen.
      From what you have written here you sound like a wonderful person, feeling lonely and maybe a little lost. We all have our dreams and long for the support of our family/friends and your thoughts here echo our own. I admire you for posting such a personal piece and look forward to looking at more of your blog.

    1. All I can say from this post is, you sound like you’re a great person. Never ever underestimate yourself and don’t make the mistake of going by what others think of you or what they tell you. Just know that you come from a very different world and those little minded shallow people can never understand you.. They’ll always be stuck with their superficial small talks, that make no sense at all.. Be confident. You don’t have to try to impress anyone or force yourself to make a conversation with anyone. I know exactly how you feel because we’re in the same boat. I don’t try very hard to strike a conversation with people anymore, and I’m sick of their usual superificial talk, hey what’s up and stuff. I spend my days with my books, and doing whatever I like. Yes, it’s lonely. Because maybe there are some of us who just don’t like the idea of being by ourselves. And as of your photography, I can’t say because this is the first post that I have read of yours. But if these many people seem to admire it, then undoubtedly you’re a great photographer. So chin up girl! Take care & keep writing (:

      1. Thank you for your humorous comment – unfortunately no succubi here! :P Take care and have a lovely week :)

        1. :) A bit of levity seemed irresistible, and what better than “gallows humor”? :) Or, as Jimmy Buffet became famous for singing: “if we weren’t crazy, then we’d all go insane”! (Hope you have a wonderful week as well!)

    1. You’re an amazing soul with such unique talent. I’m sure you will find your way back and keep on doing all the great work. If it helps, you can talk to me or your fellow bloggers. There are many souls to listen to you. Don’t reject the world for a few down falls or broken souls you have come across. There are many better people out there to enjoy life and be there for others as well. Keep blogging and photographing 😀😀😀

    1. Wow Monika, I’m sorry I missed this when you posted it. It sounds like you’re having a really tough time, and I wish I could be there to help you. Please don’t give up. You’re not a 16 years old exchange student anymore: you’re a grown woman who’s overcome many challenges. You can do this.

      1. Thank you for your encouragement, Josh! Don’t worry, I know I’m going to be fine eventually. During some days everything seems overwhelming, but writing helps and knowing that people are there for me, too. Take care, I hope you’re doing well!

    1. It is fate that you saw my post and I was quite drawn to this one? No sometimes people are meant to connect. We all have our demons and we have to fight most of them ourselves because some of them really exist only in our minds. I have been through this and I still have some of these days so I quite know what you are talking about. Some days the whole universe seems to plot against you but maybe that’s because you alone are a big big threat to the whole universe. Think about it and just go with the flow, wonderful things will happen and crap will happen too. Learn to enjoy the coffee and dodge the crap that comes your way you will become more flexible if not anything else.

    1. Life can be tough can’t it? You are definitely not the only one. I’d say that most of my life has been hard. Very hard. What has gotten me through? My desire, my belief even when I have no reason to believe, that ‘this too shall pass’ and things will improve. My love of good and beautiful things like nature (remember, there is no judgement in nature). And when I feel myself struggling to find the good in people, and on the edge of throwing the whole lot out, I find someone who truly is and it’s like an oasis in the desert.

      Time. Don’t be impatient with yourself. Don’t try so hard to please others. You’re already so much better than a lot of people because you are honest. That’s big. Just relax and see the spirit in the world and take time.

    1. One last thing. Even when we are doing everything right there can still come occasions when we despair. In such times I picture myself floundering out at sea, then I turn to see a tether, a rope tied to shore floating nearby and I grab hold of it and slowly begin to pull myself back in. Always have that tether available.

    1. Hi Moni, dein Post ist jetzt schon zwei Wochen her und es tut mir leid, dass ich den verpasst habe. Als ich den gerade gelesen habe, wurde mein Herz immer schwerer, es hört sich an, als ob du im Moment eine Menge durchmachst. Ich hätte dir auch gerne ein paar ermutigende Worte gegeben. Leider bin ich nicht so gut mit Worten, kann dir aber jeder Zeit ein offenes Ohr anbieten. :*

    1. I wish I came across this post earlier I would have messaged you right away if you needed someone to talk to or even some company :(

      There was so much going on that I only got the chance to catch up on your posts now starting with the ones in early January.
      It saddens me how you went from happy-Moni with her boyfriend and friends to sad-Moni who is (or feels?) alone.
      I wanted to randomly write you a message several times but I didn’t know how to approach you or I thought you’re too busy and now I feel even worse not doing so..
      If you need a bit of distraction in form a weird asian girl I’ll be more than willing to help!

      Lots of love,
      Vanessa

      P.S. We still need to go eat Cupcakes and Sushi together ;D

      P.P.S. I’m very forgetful sometimes but I try to remember to send you a random message soon :D

      1. Oh my dear, thank you so much for your cute words! <3 don't worry! I'm so sorry I stopped replying to your message, please don't feel bad about not writing me! To be honest, I'm afraid when I'm in that dark place, nothing but time can help - but of course, it's good to feel that people care :) so it's definitely "feels alone" - my mind convinces me that I am although I'm not.

        (and just to clarify: I don't think my mood is related with my boyfriend being here or not, that sounds as if everything depends on him :D)

        Anyways, I'd love to meet up with you again this spring!! <3 March is pretty busy for me, but maybe you're free in April? :) I hope you're doing well!

        Take care!!
        Lots of love back,
        Moni xx

        1. Awww, I’m glad you’re not mad at me for not writing earlier >.< Oh maan, I know that crappy feeling of (maybe just) telling yourself that you're alone or lonely and finally believing in it although people are here for you and that just sucks :-/ I hope with spring and its sun your mood will also brighten up a bit :)

          Weeehooo, that would be soo cool! And that's perfect since I'm going to Japan in two weeks and will be back by the beginning of April! I'm sure we'll find a date together ^___^

          Hope to hear from you soon and see you soon too ;D
          Looove and huuugs,
          Vanessa

    1. I opened your website randomly, something pushed me to read this post. Luckily, I feel lot better after I read your post. Writing, reading or any form of art that comes out through our bodies from the mind reduces the tension it seems. Keep writing. There are people who look deep inside rather than judging by covers. All the best ;)

    1. Monika,

      I came across this post, when you liked a recent chapter posted on my blog. First off, thank you for doing so, but more important, thank you for leading me here. What an achingly real, raw and emotional story you shared, and I appreciate your truth. Darkness reveals the true brightness of light, so thank your demons for revealing themselves. Now experienced, you can focus on what’s right for you, what’s healthy and continue creating beautiful art. Thank you for finding me, so I could find you. Cheers, ciao and au revoir. -SRG

    1. Life can be so twisted and twisting sometimes. It’s hard, that’s life’s one constant. I’m up, I’m down, I’m in the doldrums, I’m lonely, it’s too crowded, I’m so in love it hurts, I hate so hard with a side of extra rage, I believe, I’m afraid, I’m so sensitive life, the air, and even light hurts (or darkness hurts), I’m hardened and invulnerable, no one and nothing can touch me. And stability is instability, but my love of reading and my love of (a few) others is constant, even if I momentarily hate someone it goes away unless they’ve proven themselves intentionally evil. Your photography is beautiful, you are beautiful. Your heart is tender and beautiful, and your writing is vulnerable and sweet.

      Thank you for noticing my blog.

      Deon Mumple

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