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Happiness In The Ordinary

Some days are perfect from the moment you wake up till you rest your tired head on the pillow and nestle down in cozy blankets. I wake up early to bake for the first time for ages. I craved this Oatmeal Cherry Crumble Pie since I’ve seen it on my favourite food blogger’s website a couple of days ago. It finishes just in time so I get to taste some of the warm, vegan deliciousness, then I leave to meet my Romanian acquaintance. The last time we saw each...

Bangkok-streets

Saving A Friendship In Bangkok

September 2015 How far would you go to save a friendship? After some back and forth that included a spontaneous trip to Manila, it finally works out: I’d meet up with my Burmese friend in Bangkok – as a compromise between Yangon and Singapore, where I’m staying for a couple of weeks. We met two years ago at a beach party in Singapore and subsequently got closer through Facebook – thanks to his insomnia and the fact that I, living in Switzerland, was the...

Faded Magic

I see three ghosts from my past in a day, people I haven’t seen for ages. In a time long gone, I was in unhealthy relationships with two of them – for reasons I don’t understand anymore. The possibility of a confrontation makes me feel uneasy, but emotionally I’m unaffected. The unjustified accusations of being needy and emotionally dependent, the control imposed over me, the self-esteem I lost because I was too young to know how to defend my boundaries, the tears of...

Doors Wide Open

I still have four weeks until I have to hand in my portfolio for my photography studies application, but I’m already freaking out. My head feels clouded, anxiety runs through my body and mind and I have to pull myself together so I don’t resort to food in order to feel in control of something, anything. At the end, I give in. Loads of salted crackers fill my belly. While I used to hate myself because of that, I let it...

November Thoughts – 2015

November 10th Life passes so quickly between taking care of children, tuition, photo shoots, nurturing relationships and fretting about art school choices. I love these peaceful weeks in which I do what I love, save up money and don’t have to worry about my future (yet). Unfortunately this will change soon enough. Now it’s already dark by 5pm and Christmas decoration is displayed in the shop windows. It’s almost mid November and I wonder what has happened to October. My first uni...