I am an idealist and a dreamer. Luckily, I’m also a doer. Wonderful things have happened since I’ve actively started to follow my dreams but it’s hard to always keep them in mind. I came across this post from The Heart’s Quest – a welcomed reminder to stick to who I really am and what I want. Do yourself a favor – read it and watch the TED Talk!
I want to be me, “all of who I am”. But what is all of who I am?
I’m nineteen, still a teenager. Thinking of myself as a teenager makes me feel so young, but thinking of not being a teenager anymore soon makes me feel older than I want to feel. Nonetheless, I am nineteen and hopefully there are still plenty of years ahead of me. Years I can shape the way I want to, to end up having a life I’m happy with. I don’t want to wake up in fifteen years asking myself “How the heck did the years went by? What happened to my dreams?”
But it’s not only striving towards a happy life in the future. I also want to be happy with my current life, right now. That’s why it’s important to direct every step you take towards your dreams. Because doing things to approach your dreams is adding happiness to your life.
The life I truly want for myself includes:
- I want to live outside the box. I don’t want to have a 9-15 job one day. I want to have a life like this lucky teenager who’s traveling with his family since he was six. He’s younger than me but his posts show that his lifestyle has made him a really reflective, open-minded, mature and critical person. I want my children growing up learning things only life and traveling can teach them.
- I want to see the world and take beautiful photographs of it to share this experience with other people. While traveling the world I want to get in touch with the locals so learning languages is essential.
- I’ve wanted to visit a Native American Reservation for a couple of years now. After an inspirational encounter with one of my favorite authors in Gotha two weeks ago this dream is so alive that just thinking of how little lacks to fulfil it hurts. All those years I thought it was a faraway dream, now I’ve come to realize that it only requires a little step to fulfil it. And having to wait a little bit longer because it’s not the right moment yet makes me so impatient. I am going fulfill this dream as soon as possible. A promise to myself.
- Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God’s kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile. – Mother Teresa
I’m not sure if I believe in God however I love this quote. I want to live by it but I think it’s really difficult to put it into practice without being exploited.
- I want to change the world. Make a little difference at least. I think working as a volunteer for nine months was a good start but it’s definitely just the beginning.
- I want to be surrounded by people who inspire me. There’s nothing better than being around people who make me believe that there is more to life and that it’s to me to go and get it.
- On the other hand, I want to inspire people too. By showing them how many good things can happen when you step out of your comfort zone, choose the path less traveled and take risks. By encouraging them not to bend down before other people’s and society’s expectations.
- I want to have real connections to people. Talk about things that matter, be open. We hide behind masks way too often and how can we truly connect when nobody is being real? We can’t.
- And now, since I’m being completely honest with myself, I’ve come to realize that I want to return to live in Singapore. Not forever. But before I have to give up my passport next year. I’ve contemplated it before but the pressure to start studying was bigger. I’m regretting it. Damn.
Things I do because I think I should:
- Sport. It’s really sad to say it. I’m not a unathletic person and I usually enjoy doing sports when I’m actually doing it but I get myself to do it because it feels like an obligation, not because I truly want it for myself. Even though I know it’s healthy and important etc.
- I’ve confessed it above, I’m not keen on studying. I’m doing it to get a better foundation for my later life but I’m not 100% convinced of it. And it’s what people in Switzerland do at some point after high school. But I hope that studying psychology will give me the assets to help people the way I dream of one day.
- Probably a couple of other things too but it’s 1.30am in the morning and my brain is trying to handle the consequences of the realization that I’d rather spent one year in Singapore than starting to study so I can’t think of anything else anymore.
I think I’ll start a ritual of thinking about all those dreams waiting to become a real part of me once a week so I won’t lose them out of sight anymore.
What about you? As I said, real connections are important to me and I’d really like to connect with you, my dear reader! So feel free to share your thoughts about this topic in a post or in a comment!